I did a few Capture Your Grief posts on my Facebook page…
Last year it was fun but this year it felt like work. It started to really stress me out. So I said fuck it and quit.
I honestly have the hardest time coming up with blog posts. I don’t know how much longer I can keep this blog going.
Jim and I are seeing a therapist twice a month. It’s going pretty good so far.
Jim’s sister is pregnant again, and if she’s having a girl, she wants the 4 giant bags of clothes back that she gave me for Grace.
I guess it’s fine, I mean, what am I gonna do with them?
I’m supposed to lose over 50 pounds so I can get the knee replacement surgery I so badly need. But I can’t even walk 20 steps without excruciating pain. Meaning I can’t really exercise. The cartilage has worn away. My bones are literally rubbing together.
So I’ve been skipping meals, hoping that will help.
We are both having a really hard time. Some days we can’t even get out of bed. Suffering from chronic pain, missing Grace, debating suicide. It could happen. There would be no more pain, we would be together forever and be with Grace too.
Just a thought.